I believe that my response to my upcoming clinical exam is rapid cycling Bi-Polar disorder.
What seems like half a million times a day I go from thinking, "I can totally pass this exam. NOOOOooo problem." to "Oh MY GOD! I know nothing! How do I keep my job? My license! I will never pass this exam even if I studied every minute for the next six months!"
Good times. SUPER good times.
I have talked before about my uhhh..ahem...nervous tendencies.
Since I started this blog I don't recall being in any exam situations. So I am here to tell you that my level of anxiety where tests are concerned make my other "nervous tendencies" look like I am strolling happily in the park on a splendid summer's day.
It. Is. Ugly.
Generally I obsess for several days..then a day or two before the test I have a crying melt-down...then the morning of the test I am very nauseated, unable to eat, and have major stomach upset.
I do somehow manage to pull it together and take the exam. Which is good.
Hopefully this will be the last time I have to take an exam of this magnitude and importance.
Unless I decide to go back to school to become certified to be a school counselor.
That is still on the table.
Maybe this test experience will cure me of that idea.
Now I should call it a night.