Derailed

Friends, I have not discussed my "Journey to Better Health" for several months now.

There is a reason for that.

Not a terribly happy one either.

The reason is because my Journey has been derailed.

Big time.

Well....I guess it could be worse.

Exercise. This has not been too bad actually. I am usually putting in at least 30 minutes a day 5 days a week. Some weeks I have even managed an hour a day. I really need to shake up my exercise and get in toning. But at least I am exercising.

Eating. Ugh. Not taking much care at all with what I eat. I usually do great at breakfast and lunch. Snacks..ehh somewhat hit and miss. Dinner...bad. After dinner....still bad.

Once I lost my mojo at the beginning of the year, I have never gotten it back.

So the couple of pounds I gained back are now up to 7.

Yikes.

Somewhere somehow I have to get my mojo back. I worked too damn hard to let things go back to where they were.

So what am I to do.

To start off with I am going to review all those scary lab results that got me started on this in the first place. I have not had my labs re-done since I lost the weight. I wanted a full year to pass, and get back down to my goal weight before I had them re-done. Well...I am not getting there so I guess it is time to give myself an ultimatum. I am giving myself until Oct 1 to get back down to my goal weight. Whether I am there or not come Oct 1 I am calling the doctor and scheduling the lab work. If I have met the goal then we will see if all this paid off. If not...well either the news will be good, or bad and if it ain't good then maybe that will put me over the edge and get me back on track. Or it may mean I have to start taking medication for high cholesterol. I am not thrilled at all by that prospect, but am bracing myself. Genetics is not in my favor here.

The next thing that has to happen is a change in mindset. I seem to think that I must eat what my family eats and that sadly is all to often not good choices. I am going to have to let go of this idea and start eating what I know is good for me regardless of what they are doing. This got me through before. It was not without some serious grumpiness on my part at times,( I might have had visions of stabbing people with forks as I watched them shovel in cheese fries as I nibbled my salad.) but it did encourage BH at least to start being more healthy too. So hopefully the same will happen again.

I have to religiously track what I am eating. This was a huge help before. It gets on my nerves at times, but it worked great for me before.

Lastly I have to stop beating myself up and letting everything go to hell just because I made one bad choice. That thinking causes me a great deal of defeat.

7 pounds is a drop in the bucket compared to where I was almost a year and a half ago. So I know this is do-able.

I just have to start....

Now.